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 tsovinar waters 

***full name.*** tsovinar nasrin (kha ) waters
***also known as.***  nar ; blackblood ; the shadowflame***date of birth & age.***  17th sun of the 5th umbral moon - 29 winters
***guardians.***  nhaama, the dusk mother ; nymeia, the spinner ; nald'thal, the traders
***gender & pronouns.***  female ; she/her
***orientation.***  bisexual***jobs.***  black mage, reaper, gunbreaker, astrologian, weaver, goldsmith, miner
***grand company.***  immortal flames
***race & clan.***  xaela au ra

LOREBorn in the Azim Steppe into the Kha tribe of the Xaela to Oktai Kha and Tsetseg Angura, Tsovinar grew up amongst a rather curious group of Au Ra, being graced with the ability and opportunity to learn of and from other cultures that their wandering brought them into contact with. Even at an early age, leaders amongst the 51 tribes, as well as those Disciples of Magic they came across in their travels told her mother that Tsovinar was destined to not primarily wield weapons, but rather harness an ability to manipulate the aether around herself through various forms of magicks.As such, Tsovinar felt as if she was a disappointment to her clan, being a child of Nhaama, yet one to use magic more like a child of Azim, despite that neither Xaela nor Raen are beholden to a particular form of battlecraft. Ignoring the reassurances from tribal elders and even those of the other tribes at the annual battle in the Steppes for supremacy that this was not an unheard of occurrence amongst their clan, those among Tsovinar's peers teased her for her overly curious nature, instead focusing her attention on reading and crafting with her predisposition to magick, rather than the roughhousing and physical activities of those in her age group. Despite this, her beauty and pedigree as talented artisan from strong warrior blood made her a highly desired bride, and many a suitor asked for her hand. She did, in fact, accept a proposal from a member of the Dalamiq tribe, and the courtship with Ender was a stilted, but kind one.During a Naadam around the age of 17, an errant stone that had been made airborne in the course of fighting struck her in her right eye, causing her to become blind. The blindness she obtained allowed for her to better sense aether around her, and despite her losing the pigment in the eye, leading it to go from a vivid ruby to an alarming milky white, she did nothing to draw attention away from it, making her a target for further persecution, and any prospects for matchmaking within the tribes had seemingly dissipated, especially after her engagement to Ender Dalamiq ended due to her disarming appearance, deemed a curse by the gods. It was this that acted as the final impetus for Tsovinar to leave the safety and comfort of her tribal life after two years, and instead headed towards Eorzea, having heard stories both awesome and horrific of the occurrences there, especially after the events of Carteneau.Finding herself in Ul'dah after several years of travel and adventure at the age of 21, it was the caring demeanor of Momodi that helped the guarded Au Ra come into her own, and it was through Momodi's guidance and encouragement of Tso's curiosity that she found herself at the doors of the Arrzaneth Ossuary, the home for the Thaumaturge's Guild. After her initial quests to test her powers and finding that thaumaturgy in fact came naturally to her, it was then that she found herself suddenly ensnared in the political intrigue and the greater battle of Light and Darkness that cast its shadow not just across Ul'dah, but across Eorzea and Etheirys as a whole.It was the appearance of Thancred Waters at almost every turn when Tso found herself in trouble in her initial time in Thanalan that both confused and intrigued her, and once she had been named Emissary for Ul'dah by Flame General Raubahn and had made her trips to Gridania and Limsa Lominsa, it was upon her return to Ul'dah that Momodi explained to her the truth of Thancred's intentions, as he was a member of the Scions of the Seventh Dawn. Echoing in her mind, however, were the words Thancred had told her outside of the Adventurer's Guild of Ul'dah: "You, my lady, are quite a marvel, and I confess to being quite taken with you." Out of curiosity at what the Scions entailed, as well as her own curiosity and fledgling attraction to Thancred, Tsovinar traveled to Vesper Bay, and became a member.Through her membership of the Scions, she became involved, in one way or another, with political subterfuge, conspiracy, the dismantling of a Garlean empire legion, slaying of several primals (some more than once), battles with dragons and religious zealots, all while secretly studying the forbidden art of black magicks. While being a Warrior of Light and assisting the Scions with their pursuit of maintaining the light of hope, it was in between her Scions duties that she would meet in secret with other black mages, honing her skills and giving her soul to the art. This is not publicly disclosed information but those she is intensely close to are aware, and have been sworn to secrecy as well.Throughout all of this, a tempestuous dalliance with Thancred began, reaching a head after the battle with Ifrit, under the assertion from the both of them that they were simply friends with benefits, working out tension that had grown between them over their time in Thanalan. This was, of course, not believed by any of the Scions upon their 'discovery,' as it was obvious from day one how attracted Tso and Thancred were to each other, and when they finally stopped shoddily pretending that there was nothing between them in any manner, there was suddenly much more money in Tataru's pockets, yet she denied any sort of betting ring related to their 'inevitable' hookup.Her dealings with Coerthas and her necessity to head into Ishgard set her on edge, because whilst she isn't dragonkin, the prejudiced eyes of the Ishgardians towards the dragons placed a target on her head nonetheless, for having the misfortune of having scales, horns, and a tail, and their noted history of targeting another Xaela tribe due to this misconception made her uncomfortable to say the least. The blessed presence of Ser Aymeric de Borel in her life since entering Ishgard had not only made her feel safe, but Tso leaned on him and House Fortemps following the disappearance of her fellow Scions, especially her beloved Thancred, who she'd become closer to and had begun to develop feelings for after the events of the Praetorium.Once Thancred had been found, the confusion in Tso's heart began to overwhelm her, for now she recognized truly just how irrevocably in love she had been with him this entire time. Following the defeat of Nidhogg and the rescue of Estinien, it was with a very gentle let down that Tsonivar told Aymeric about her feelings for Thancred. Despite his feelings being unrequited, Aymeric has remained one of her closest confidantes and supporters, wishing her nothing but positive tidings, even after everything.The events of the liberation of Ala Mhigo and Doma brought Tso back home to the Azim Steppe for the first time in what had felt like ages, now with a better understanding of the realm outside of Othard. While her experience with the Domans and especially the Raen Au Ra were interesting in an educational manner, it was the return to the Steppe that felt almost as if she'd finally belonged amongst her people once more. The unfortunate matter was that she didn't once stumble across any member of the Kha tribe, save for a representative at Reunion. It was to be expected, as the Kha live on the outskirts of the Steppe, but it still was upsetting to not be able to immediately show her family her success.The Naadam once more took place, and this time, Tso fought under the banner of the Mol tribe, claiming victory for them and being named the khagan of the Steppe. Nhaama made right the wrong done to her in her youth by declaring her no longer a victim of weakness but instead warrior ruler of all 51 tribes; Tso was mournful only that her family and Thancred could not witness her success firsthand.After liberation had been assured for both Doma and Ala Mhigo, and the alliance with the Xaela had been solidified, as well as a difficult and confusing interaction with Zenos yae Galvus prior to his suicide, Tso found herself the last remaining Scion to succumb to the Calling by the Crystal Exarch, watching as her found family, including her now-boyfriend Thancred, succumbing one by one to crippling pain before their souls were plucked from their bodies. While trying to assist her Far Eastern comrades in their fights against the Garlean Empire was a duty of obligation she felt she had to continue, it was upon the insistence of Tataru to find their fellow Scions as priority, as she was strictly forbidden from fighting the Ascians who controlled Garlemald (and possessed Zenos' corpse) on her own.Upon entering The First, finding her fellow Scions (as well as learning about the legacy Minfilia's existence had created on that shard), and forming a connection with the spirit of Ardbert, the Warrior of Light of that shard, Tsonivar realized how much of a larger struggle she found herself in. After meeting with the Ascian Emet-Selch and learning of the atrocities that came along with the sin eaters and the Flood of Light, Tsovinar began to question her involvement as Hydaelyn's champion, especially after being made aware by Emet-Selch of the knowledge that both Hydaelyn and Zodiark were primals.Furthermore, as Emet-Selch provided more exposition and context into the motive behind the Ascians' plot for the Rejoining, as well as his own wistful recollections of his time in the world unsundered, Tsovinar herself began to recollect a time when her fully formed past life had been in the role of Azem, the Traveler, on the Convocation of Fourteen. She could not remember too much, but she remembered her name was Eris, what her appearance was, and that she had been intensely close with Emet-Selch during their time in Amaurot; in fact, they were former lovers, spouses even, and it was this awareness of their past that complicated her already temperate approach to Emet-Selch.However, after nearly becoming a sin eater herself through the absorption of the light from each lightwarden she killed, and defeating Emet-Selch in a battle that left her deeply heartbroken and conflicted afterwards, she was able to find a way through the teamwork of her fellow Scions and the residents of The First, as well as the ingenuity of the Crystal Exarch, to bring everyone back home to the Source, but not before freeing the spirit of Elidibus from his Ascian mission, recalling his gentle demeanor and kind heart as Themis back when she was Azem. It was the least she could do for her dear friend, who she considered almost a younger brother back in their days in Amaurot.During the brief respite after the return to the Source, Tsovinar was reunited with her younger brother, Batbayar, courtesy of Lyse, Cirina, and Hien. While Tsovinar still had a poor taste in her mouth for Hien's handling of everything with Yotsuyu, she couldn't help but show gratitude for his part in reuiniting her with her family by gifting him a traditionally woven Steppe blanket, as she knew he had taken kindly to the Steppe wares during his time with the Mol.It was during this time, landing between coming back to the Source and the temporary move to Sharlayan, that Tso and Thancred quietly decided to elope, knowing that not every day is promised to them. Batbayar was chosen to Witness, as well as Cirina, and Temelun officiated the ceremony, as it was using traditional Xaela ritual using the faith of the Steppe (the faith involving Nhaama and Azim.) While the ceremony was everything they wanted, being intimate and not ostentatious in the slightest, this decision made everyone else upset, because how presumptuous of them to assume that no one would want to be in attendance. At the suggestion (read: insistence and threats) of Tataru, Krile, and Nanamo, a small-ish ceremony was held for the faith of the Twelve at Thal's Respite in Eastern Thanalan.This brief period of happiness was short lived, however, for with the return of Zenos and the arrival of the Ascian Fandaniel, along came with it the instigation of the Final Days. Tsovinar has blocked much of this out for her own mental health (and, quite possibly, has blacked it out due to trauma) but has had continuing nightmares of not having control of her body, of watching her loved ones disappear into smoke in front of her, and a sea of Elpis flowers turning pitch black. She does, however, have warm memories of visiting Elpis: the kind, warm smile of Hythlodaeus, another former lover and her best friend, whom she had begun to recall when she visited the manufactured Amaurot in the Tempest; the gentle curiosity of Meteion and bleeding heart of Hermes; the mischief and strength of Venat; and, most notably, the all too familiar sarcastic tone and disarmingly golden eyes of Hades, also known as Emet-Selch. She, to this day, holds the Azem crystal and knows that while it may hold little to no power at this point, it is still part of her soul and her history. Every now and then, she catches sight of her reflection and sees a golden-skinned woman with striking green eyes and midnight blue hair and knows that that is Eris, that is Azem, her former life.In an ironic twist of fate, it was in Ul'dah, meeting with Nanamo for a simple lunch and tea, that an illness she'd come down with over the past few weeks following the return from Ultima Thule was revealed to actually be an unexpected pregnancy. This was not revealed to the rest of the Scions until after her return from Alzadaal's Legacy in Thavnair, and it was Y'shtola who had figured it out, much to Tsovinar's chagrin. This, of course, means that Tso bested the Endsinger, fought Zenos to the brink of death, and also traveled to Alzadaal's Legacy in the very early stages of pregnancy, and after a thorough chewing out from every single member of the Scions and her other associates, she shared the news with Thancred. As of now, they have residency in both Ul'dah and Sharlayan, as the Rising Stones is currently vacated by all except Tataru, due to the charade of the Scions splitting.Once Tsovinar gave birth to Anya Erdene Waters, prior to the events of the excursion to the Thirteenth, something within Tsovinar recognized that the soul within Anya was familiar. When she was Eris, she did not carry soul sight to the degree of her lovers Hades and Hythlodaeus, but she knew the distinctive warmth Anya's presence provided her was more so than a maternal care, and it was confirmed when the first patches of lavender-tinged hair began to grow on Anya's head: Hythlodaeus' soul had been reborn, even if it was only a fraction of it.This was due in part to both Hades and Hythlodaeus seeing back in Ultima Thule that Tsovinar was pregnant, and was at risk for miscarrying due to the battles she had fought and was due to fight. Not wanting to see Azem suffer any further than she already had, Hythlodaeus made the difficult decision to be reborn again, despite only just reconnecting with Hades in the aetherial sea after being freed from Zodiark. It was with both Hythlodaeus' soul within the babe and Hades and Zenos both willing for her to live, that both she and Anya survived. The only lasting effect that Tsovinar obtained from her struggles were minor damage to her right lung leaving her to be winded a bit quicker, but otherwise her and Anya were unscathed physically.During her free time, when she isn't studying in Sharlayan for her Archon mark, as she refuses to have it be honorary only, she works as a hostess at the cafe her FC, Primrose, runs, as well as runs her own fortune-telling teahouse.

DESCRIPTIONShe has medium tanned skin, with deep blue-black scales that span her body in patches, as well as blue-black horns and tail. Her dark purple hair is streaked with a pale turquoise, and is worn down with a braid that goes across the top of her head, with a harsh cut bang. She has black kohl liner that spans the entirety of her eyelids, and either wears red ochre or more black kohl, and the eye that wasn't made milky with blindness is red with a brighter red limbal ring. She wears a silver chain design in her septum, and has a tribal tattoo similar to the Bedouin eye under her left breast. She also wears chains and jewels with starts and moons on her horns.Following the events in the First, the corruption from the Lightwardens turned her blinded eye more white, leaving her eyes to appear almost set with gemstones. In respect to her garment choice, when not crafting, she prefers to wear clothes either dark or in jewel tones, but will wear light colors if convinced.Personality wise, she is guarded at first, due to being concerned with the past mocking she'd received while growing up, as well as the careful nature she must possess due to her secret role as Black Mage. However, once she becomes comfortable around people, her actual demeanor shines through. It's a blend of sarcasm, a dark and frankly lewd or inappropriate tinge to her jokes, as well as a taste for alcohol and herbal teas. It is this sense of humor that allows her to get on as well as she does with the Scions, especially with Thancred, even if sometimes she even facepalms or blushes at the things that may inadvertently come out of his mouth. She is a bit of a book worm, and can easily be wooed with flowers.

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